the queer forest wizard

a white man, shirtless, with a beard, shaved head, and green glasses. He has chest hair and a tattoo on his upper right chest. He is holding one hand up with the middle and ring finger meeting the thumb. The pinkie and pointer finger are extended upwards. The man is in a room with white walls, a white door, and pipes overhead.

yo what up

hey i'm nick (he/him/they/them). i'm a weird hermit who sometimes makes stuff and who sometimes writes and who often doesn't want to talk to anyone.

i've spent my life looking for meaning in the world of spirit and magick. my family brought me up in that distinctly american agnostic way; we never went to church but i understood jesus and god to exist. even so, i always felt something was missing.

as a fairly young kid i spent time researching christianity, judaism, buddhism, and islam. they all spoke to me, but left me wanting. as a teen i discovered wicca, and it really felt like i was onto something. the ability to take my fate into my own hands by casting spells.

over time i was drawn in by spiritualism, a local religion that focuses on mediumship and energetic healing. add to that reiki and i was finding an even better fit.

a rift at the spiritualist church affected me so badly that i left spirituality almost completely for years and years. during the height of the pandemic i found myself drawn to gnosticism (a full circle back to christianity) and ancient wisdom traditions. Today my main focus is rosicrucianism. as a member of the ancient and mystical order rosae crucis, i feel more at home than ever.

all this is to say that i'm a mystic. i'm a wizard. i'm a seeker of truth. all i want to do is enmesh myself with divinity.

an image of a beaded neckalce on rough canvas. The beads are earth tones and wired with silver wire to create something akin to a rosary.

Zu Foos Store

i started a business in 2009 selling knit items and tarot readings. eventually that became aromatherapy products, which led into candles and soaps. now i'm doing tarot deck wraps and rosaries.

Zu Foos is a Germanic play on words that i translate to mean "on foot," and i hope it's evident that it isn't any one thing or theme. it's an activity. it's a reminder to trust where my feet will lead me. whatever the expression, the soul of it all is making magick in the woods.

A white phone case on a white background. On the white phone case is, in black, the word "faggot." The letter F is stylized and extended below the other letters, ending in a point.

Zu Foos @ Society6

every once in a while i make some digital art and slap it on a variety of different objects. if you aren't familiar with it, i highly recommend checking out society6. they're a pretty rad company.

and, because of them, you can let everyone know you're a straight up faggot every time you check your phone.

Personal Blog

sometimes i talk about stuff and this is where i do it. literally just a dumping ground for feelings that are probably too personal to post publicly, investigations, recipes, and weird magickal stuff.

an image of a white man smiling. He is wearing green glasses and has a shaved head and beard. There are trees behind him.

hey let's cuddle. it's chill and restorative and honestly, couldn't you use a hug?

a personal project of mine in which I collect, list, and curate books, texts, and other digital items in one freely available website. if you're interested in esotericism, the occult, or anything that falls under those umbrellas, check out the archive and take out a book or two.